FULFIL YOUR DESTINY

Have you been chosen from birth?
Joseph was God's anointed vessel, same as us if we are chosen and called for a certain work. Now Joseph's brothers hated him and was jealous of him. Can you relate to that I can? The Lord gave him a dream of what he would do, in later years. And he told it to his family. They already hated him, because his father had made him, a coat of many colors. Because he was a son, of his old age, and his father loved him. After he told them the dream he had, they hated him even more. His father even rebuked him, can you relate to that I can? His brothers hated him so much that they wanted to kill him, have you felt that people wanted to kill you spiritually, especially your family, due to jealously, I have? You are expecting them to be happy for you, when you tell them, that God told you, you were chosen but they become jealous of you. And jealous spirits make people, cruel and spiteful. One of Joseph's
brothers, Judah, said what profit is it if, we slay our brother, and conceal his blood? Come let us sell him to the Ishmeelites. God always lets certain people find favor with us to carry out his plan for our life's, doesn't he. They sold him to the Ishmeelites, for 20 pieces of silver;
Now notice, Joseph was on a journey ordained by God. He probably was expecting his dreams to come true, right after God gave them to him. Is this you? Has God promised to use you and you have waited, so long that you have given up hope, of ever, being used of him. God spoke things to me, when I was a child and I haven't seen nothing, but mountain, after mountain, after mountain to climb. Driving down the road one evening, I was backslide of God at that time. I looked up in the sky and a cloud turned into a man's hand, and God spoke to me and said my hand is upon you. It scared me half to death, the clouds really turned into a man's hand. I lie not then nothing else happen for a long time. I heard no more from God. Parts of my life after that, became a nightmare. Preacher after preacher told me, that I was very different and was chosen and going to be used of God. Things never changed, mountain after, mountain I was still climbing. God said he would use me to touch the heart of many, and cause them to be saved, still mountain after mountain. I was sixteen I guess at the time.
Joseph journeyed with the Isheelite for a while, can you just put your self in his shoes, what was he thinking. His heart must have been broken, his brothers doing this to him. And probably though, God where are you at? What about the dreams you showed me? Was that really God, his carnal mind probably would say. You must of missed it that wasn't God showing you nothing. Look at you, you don't look chosen to me. He had a heart you know like us, he probably began to miss his dad and would weep in the night. Can you put yourself here for a minute and feel his pain. Well after a while, the Ishmeelites, sold him to Egypt unto Potiphar, an officer of Pharaoh's, and captain of the guard. God had his life in control, everything he is about to go through is one step closer to the position God was, going to use him in. Just think, God couldn't start using him, right after he had those dreams. He was a child and he would, have to be trained and taught a lot of things, before he could fulfill his calling. He couldn't have handled it, if God had put him straight into the chosen position, that he had chosen him for. He can't put you there either, to soon. You wouldn't be able to handle it. He has to train and mold you, and put you through a lot of fires. So you want run, when he puts you on the front lines, of the enemy. Don't ever think, that he don't know what he is doing. There is things that I am going through today, that would have destroyed me years back. We get stronger as the years go by, in the school of hard knocks and bangs, whether we realize it or not. And when the captain gets ready and sees we can handle it, he will put us out there. When you get out there in your chosen position, you may wish you hadn't been in such a hurry. See where our waiting, and our faith comes in. May be you should enjoy being in training more. We have to travel this same road, that Joseph did, or we will never fulfill our calling, God has planned for our lives. Maybe the places and things will be different, but the training will be the same. Now he was going to go up a step or two. God caused his master to find favor with Joseph, this was God's doing, not by luck. Neither is it with us. Man he was doing good there for a while. Has God ever put you in a high position in church for a while and then the bottom falls out from under you, and you are dumb founded by it. The spirit of lust in his master's wife, wanted to destroy him. She probably tried everything in her power to get him in her bed. I can just see her painting her face, fixing her hair and waring the most revealing clothes she could find. The one's that showed the most of her beautiful body, to entice him. Does this sound like religious women in the churches. I didn't say the ones with salvation, they don't do this. God has taken the lust out of them, and they are in their right minds and fully clothed. Yea man she was beautiful, I'd say, but look passed the beautiful and what do you see. Look at the spirit inside of this beautiful body that people are not seeing.
People God has better, this is slop compared to what God has to give to his faithful. You are wanting a lust filled woman or man, God has better.

A spirit filled woman with the spirit of love that will overwhelm you. Stop and think about it, the devil copy's everything the Lord has to offer us. Satan paints it up and makes it look better, because he knows, he cannot offer us, as good as the Lord has for us. Because you have to first give your whole heart, mind and soul to God before, you can have his best. Satan knows when you have tasted the good things of God, he has lost you. That's why he works so hard to stop you from getting to this place in God. God gives his children the best of everything. Sorry religion you'll never know this, just continue on with your miserable little form of godliness. And live the rest of your life in misery. The man or woman, that is over come by lust in the churches, I cannot imagine, the hell they are going through, right now. The spirit of lust overwhelmed their body, no doubt and instead of letting God crucify that flesh they give in. Now that the lust and the enticing part is over, I wonder how they feel. My mind cannot comprehend the misery, that they are probably in. They probably begin to hate and despise each other. They probably can't stand to be around each other after the fling is over. They began to set and probably think, oh if I had not have fell for satans lies, using you to take the best thing that, I have ever had. And they began to blame each other no doubt. They probably fight and argue, continually, despising one another. See saten's purpose is to kill and to destroy, behind that pretty picture he has all painted up waiting on you. They probably have no reason to live any more. The church will never forgive them and confident them again. Could you have compassion and a forgiving heart for people that has done this. You better have Jesus does, one sin is no worst that the other. You better not be like the unjust Stewart. How many times have we messed up, maybe not as bad in the eyes of the public, but just as bad in God's eyes. Oh you would say, I would never do that. Better not boast, you may be the next one. With out the Lord we may just do worse. The Bible says to consider yourself, in other words you may be the next one. Jim Baker my heart breaks for him. We always have to remember, that could be me. We are all humans, we must not forget. These spirits are powerful, and the Christians have got to learn. THAT YOU
DON'T TEASE AND PLAY WITH THESE SPIRITS. They are deadly and their only purpose is to kill and destroy you. Better get that old lusting flesh dead. Go read the rest of the story you may get more out of it now.
SATEN AIN'T PLAYING GAMES HE'S PLAYING FOR KEEPS BETTER STOP TEASING HIM. The serpent bite is deadly!

WOMAN AT THE WELL

ARE YOU TIRED OF BROKEN RELATIONSHIPS?
HAS YOUR HEART BEEN BROKEN?

DO YOUR TEARS FALL LIKE RAIN?

MEET A MAN THAT WILL NEVER BE UNFAITHFUL OR ABANDON YOU
HE WILL DRY YOUR TEARS AND HEAL YOUR BROKEN HEART AND GIVE YOU A BRAND NEW LIFE

DO YOU FEEL LIKE NO ONE CARES? IS YOUR LIFE FILLED WITH LONELINESS AND LIFE SEEMS TO HAVE NO MEANING? There is hope for the hopeless and healing for the broken hearted

SHE WAS A FIVE TIME LOSER
ONE DIVORCE IS BAD ENOUGH, LET ALONE FIVE TIMES TO HAVE TO GO THROUGH THIS. BUT SHE WAS JUST ABOUT TO MEET A MAN THAT, COULD SATISFY HER EVER NEED and mend her broken heart and put the pieces of her life back together

AND AFTER SHE MEETS THIS MAN, HER LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME, NO OTHER LOVE WILL EVER SATISFIED HER AGAIN. SHE WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM. AND AFTER SHE MET HIM

She went running back to that city saying "COME SEE A MAN " who has told me everything, that I have ever done
They probably thought. Oh! don't listen to her she has just found her another man. Shes had five husbands and the one she's living with now, is not even her husband. She must have been a beautiful lady, she could get a husband, when most women couldn't even get a cup of coffee from a man.

Paraphrasing the, Woman at the well, to show you the difference in, the whore church, and the church with the love of God. So you will know, that it's not the spirit of Jesus hurting you.
I can just see her, one of the most beautiful lady's in town, that when she walked in the church house, the women would grab, their men so they, wouldn't look at that whore. She has been married five times, and now she's stopped getting married, she is shacking up with one she's probably come here to get her another man. And oh, my Lord she is waring pants, in the house of God. Look at that painted face, looking like a street whore. Oh God protect us from this whorish spirit. God can't save no one waring pants, she has shamed the house of God. She's not fit to be in our precious church building. She has polluted our holy sanctuary, if the Lord saves her, which I'm sure, he never will, she will have to set in the back, and not take part in our services. She sure can't teach our precious children, in our Sunday school classes. They whisper and talk about her, she is not good enough for Jesus to save, she is trash to them, no love, no compassion, jealous of her beauty, they are afraid she will steal their men, their not worried about Jesus saving and delivering her soul, they COULD CARE LESS. They treat her cold, won't even speak, afraid they will get their little religious spirit polluted. When service is over she leaves, feeling not good enough, beat down depressed, feeling like trash. I could never be good enough, to serve Jesus. I have went to far in sin, even the Lord, don't care, cause, the way the Christians treated me. I may as well, for get about ever getting Jesus to forgive me. I'm just a no body, a has been, my life is over, I will spend the rest of my life, the same old way, being abused and mistreated by every man I meet. I will just go home and forget, that I ever went to church. So feeling beat down as low as anyone could be, after the church got done with her, she probably didn't feel like talking to no one, so she got her water buckets and went to draw some water, probably wanting to be alone, probably suicide spirits telling her to end it all, she wasn't fit to live. This is Antichrist spirit, they make you think you could never be good enough. Their hellish spirits, running the honest, hearted people off, that really wants to know God.
With their little do's and don'ts, that don't have a thing to do with serving Jesus. You feel like, you have joined a army camp, with Hitler as over seer.
THIS IS THE SPIRIT, THE WHORE CHURCH GIVES
YOU. GOD ISN'T IN A THOUSAND MILES OF IT. This is demons from HELL. NOW WATCH THE TRUE CHURCH THE BRIDE OF CHRIST, that has the spirit of JESUS OUR DEAR SAVIOUR.
Real born again Christians, have the same spirit, as Jesus does, here at the well. She meets Jesus at the well, she is drawing water, probably having a hard time drawing the water, cause the well was deep, and Jesus said, give me a drink, and she probably, said draw your own water big boy, I've had five husband's, she was thinking, and now I'm living with one, and I've took all I'm going to off of men, and off of that religious bunch, if you want water, you'll draw it your self. I've just been to church, and even Jesus hates me. I may as well die and get it over with. I've had all I can take, so please get your on water. You could probably smell the perfume, in the air as she drawed the water, her make up running down her rosie cheeks, from sweating and drawing the water. her beautiful long hair blowing in the wind, so beautiful, and so abused and broken inside. No one cared all the men wanted, was to use her for her beauty, they cared nothing about her or her feelings. She just couldn't take, talking to another male, that just wants her for her beauty. She was a human being too, with a heart and feelings.
He said to her, if you would of ask me, I would have given you living water. John chapter 4...whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: but whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life. Notice, how he wasn't worried about what she looked like, what she had on, what mood she was in, He knew when, he touched her all this would change, FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD, THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY SON, THAT WHOSOEVER BELIEVETH ON HIM SHALL NOT PERISH, BUT HAVE EVERY LASTING LIFE. This is the gospel, and when it goes out side of this, it is lies from hell. This is the gospel it's not built on anything else. Even the disciples, dare not ask, why he talk to the woman, they still didn't know, what the gospel was all about. HE CAME TO SAVE THAT WHICH WAS LOST. It's not built upon, any other foundation. Not on your knew revelations, that is to just help you understand, Gods word more, BUT THE GOSPEL
IS FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD. FOR GOD SO LOVED
THE WORLD. She probably thought, boy living water, water pipped in my house, and I want have to come here and draw no more. She said give me this living water, that I want have to come here and draw. Cause I'm tired of drawing water for a bunch of lazy men.
OH THE LOVE OF GOD it's love, love, love, love for the lost
souls. THIS IS THE GOSPEL. Don't try to preach anything else. For God so
loved. The church needs to get back on the Rock. He smiled with love and compassion in His eyes, and said go call your husband. She said I have no husband. She sure wasn't going to tell him she had, had five, and was living with one. Then He would be after her too, and she just wasn't interested in the least. She had, had it with men. I know what you're up to, you're just like all the rest of the sorry men, that I have met. I will have to admit though, I have never had one use this line on me before. He was just wanting to see, if I had a husband, before he made a pass at me. I know how men are. HE SAID, THOU HAST WELL SAID with eyes full of love piercing through her.
For thou hast had five husbands; and he whom thou now hast is not thy husband: Then he came from being just another man to her, to a prophet. She began to feel more comfortable, talking to him now, cause prophets don't seduce women, if they are real prophets. OH FALSE ONES DOES, but not God called ones. SHE BECAME REAL RELIGIOUS , and said, our fathers worshipped in this mountain; and ye say in Jerusalem is the place where men ought to worship. In other words you go to your church and I'll go to mine praise God. HE SAID TO HER the hour is coming, when neither in my church or your church, you will worship God (paraphrasing it) ye worship ye know not what. But the hour cometh and now is that the father seeketh, men to worship him in spirit and in truth.
SHE SAID I KNOW WHEN THE MESSIAHS COMETH, which is called Christ: when he comes he will tell us all things. JESUS SAID UNTO HER. I THAT SPEAK UNTO THEE AM HE. SHE DROPED HER WATER BUCKET. Her life had been totally changed. She was a brand new person, he had filled her with living water, old things had passed away, behold all things became new, he had mended her broken life, and filled her with living water, filled with love, joy, peace. She was totally forgiven and made clean, she no longer needed these dirty men, that she had been living with, but had found something, far better. She had found a pure clean fountain of living water. Once she tasted Jesus, nothing could ever satisfied, her again. HE HAD MADE HER, FAR MORE THAN A SUNDAY SCHOOL TEACHER SHE WAS NOW A TRAVELING EVANGELIST. THE FIRST LADY TO CARRY THE WORD OF GOD. Oh how special she had become. What about it now religion, no more need for your dead, dried, stinking meat. LET THE BUZZARD'S EAT THEIR DEAD ROTTEN MEAT. I WANT TO FLY WITH THE EAGLES. AND EAT THE CLEAN SANCTIFIED MEAT. WHICH IS THE PURE RELEVATON OF THE WORD OF GOD.
SHE WENT RUNNING BACK TO THAT CITY, SAYING COME SEE A MAN THAT HAS TOLD ME EVERYTHING THAT EVER I HAVE DONE, IS NOT THIS THE CHRIST. Notice she didn't tell the women, only the men, cause they probably wouldn't have believed her any way.
They would have just said, oh don't pay any attention to her, she has just found her another man to live with. THIS IS TO SHOW YOU THE TWO SPIRITS IN THE CHURCH. THE WHORE CHURCH AND THE TRUE CHURCH . WHICH ONE DO YOU PREFER? I'LL TAKE JESUS, TAKE THIS WHOLE WORLD BUT GIVE ME JESUS. NOW GO FIND YOU A CHURCH WHERE THE SPIRIT OF THE LIVING GOD DWELLS. THIS PLAINLY SHOWS THE SPIRIT OF THE ANTICHRIST, WHICH IS THE WHORE CHURCH. AND THE SPIRIT OF THE REAL CHURCH OF JESUS CHRIST WHICH HAS THE LOVE OF GOD.
"YOU BE THE JUDGE "

TRUST NO MAN

CURSED BE THE MAN THAT TRUSTETH IN MAN AND MAKETH FLESH HIS ARM, AND WHOSE HEART, DEPARTETH FROM THE LORD.
KEEP YOUR EYES ON JESUS. HE IS MY HERO. ISN'T IT TIME WE LIFT THE ONE UP, THAT DESERVES TO BE LIFTED UP. WHAT DO WE HAVE THAT WE DID NOT RECEIVE FROM HIM. IF YOU RECEIVED IT FROM HIM, THEN WHY BOAST. Now this I say, that everyone of you saith, I am of Paul; and I of Apollos; and I of Cephas; and I of Christ. 1 cor.1:12..
Is Christ divided? was Paul crucified for you? or were ye baptized in the name of Paul?
Don't you think its time to up lift Jesus, instead of your preacher. Respect him, and reference him, if hes living right, but worship Jesus. Talk about Jesus, and what he has done for you, instead of your preacher. The preacher didn't heal me, but it was Jesus in a born again vessel.
It don't have to be a certain man, but whoever has Jesus.
Some people all they talk about is their preacher, my preacher this and my preacher that, until I won't to hide when I see them coming. They try to get you, to get in that man serving spirit with them, and hate you when you don't. Jeremiah 17: 5-8.... Thus saith the Lord; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the Lord...For he shall be like the heath in the desert, and shall not see when good cometh; but shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness, In a salt land and not inhabited. You will be barren, and yielding no fruit...gal.5:19
Verse 7...Blessed is the man that trusteth in the Lord, and whose hope the Lord is. Verse 8..For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit, yielding much fruit, gal. 5:22
EVERYBODY IS SICK OF HEARING SERMONS:
As the song goes, I'd rather see a sermon, than hear a sermon, any day. Everybody wants to talk it, but they don't want to walk it. Their sick of looking at your pretty dresses dragging the ground, looking so holy, and having a self righteous spirit, thinking you're better than any body else. Matt. 6.. They need help, not condemned, by your self righteous spirit, which is of the devil and it, stinks in the nostrils of God....Jesus is the one that dies for our sin's, not you. It's not by our righteous but by his righteous, our righteous is as filthy rags.
Oh! I've fasted and I've prayed and I know God will move because, I done all this, no He moves, be cause of his sacrifice, His blood he shed on the cross. You fasting and praying is to only kill out your sinful flesh, so he can live in you. It's His Blood, His sacrifice, He's the one that died for our sins, not you, or the preacher. If they are depressed, and ready to commit suicide, they need those spirits lifted off of them, when they come in your presents. Their not worrying about hearing you talk, of how holy you and your preacher are. And how everybody else is devils except you and your church. Matt. 10: 8.. They want to here about Jesus, and not only here about it, but see some deliverance power in you, to free them from their torment. It's not, our out, ward attire, but it's whether we have the Kingdom of God inside of us. Religion has, the talk it, but salvation has the deliverance, power, which is the Kingdom of God in man. You don't have to tell no one, that the spirit of God is in you, the devil knows you, when he sees you coming. The man in the tomb, didn't have to be told nothing, he said to Jesus, Matt. 5: 7...and cried with a loud voice, and said, what have I to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of the most high God?
Preachers are building an earthly kingdom, building their fine large churches, and it's like going to the funeral home. But God is looking for men and women that will, build his kingdom inside them. So the devils will tremble in their presence. we don't have to be in a fancy buildings, we can be on the street corner, or behind the barn.
EVERY BODY IS FIGHTING WHO'S PREACHER IS THE BEST:
I'm not worried about none of them, myself. I want Jesus, it doesn't matter to me who does the preaching, as long as he has, the Kingdom of God, inside of him. Oh they want, have nothing to do with you, if you don't belong to their little church. That is a spirit from
HELL. I am looking for born again Christians, not where you go to church.
If you are black, white, red, yellow, Christians are colored blind. Everyone is a like, God makes no difference in people. If you do, you have the spirit of the devil, the old Adam nature.
You say you sound offel mean, no, I just speak the truth, read the Bible. God don't excuse these things, and preachers need to start preaching against sin, instead of calling sin good, and good evil. And stop petting their sins..and lift up Jesus instead of their selves. Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit and of the joints and marrow and is a discerner of the thoughts and the intents of the heart. People hates the truth, they will not admit their sins, and repent of them. When you do this you HATE GOD AND HIS WORD...It don't matter how religious, you act like you are. But a sincere heart that loves God and His word will repent, and don't, want no sin, in them. Some are like Saul, and won't admit their evil ways. This person is dangerous, cause, he will become a deadly deceiver, knowing the truth and not living it. It's time to wake up and call sin, sin and stop making excuses for it. 99% of people that go to church is worshiping the preacher, they want a god they can see, they will not serve the Real God. They can't trust something they can't see, it's like saying jump and I'll catch you. And they can't see the one at the bottom with his arms out to catch them. We walk by faith not sight. This is sad, I pray people will wake up before it to late. A person that is worshiping man, is almost impossible, to show him, that he is doing that. He is blinded, and it will take the spirit of God in someone, to break that spirit in them, so they can see..I know when I had it, I wouldn't of believed you, if you said I was worshiping man, I probably would have gotten mad at you. No madd wouldn't have been the word of it. But your god can't deliver you when the storm hits...you better get your eyes back on Jesus. When hard times come, you may not be able to find your preacher, he may not have time to come and see you, he may not even care, as much as you thought he did. He may have been only worried about your money. I know what I'm talking about, I've seen and been through all this. I'm living proof. LOVE SPEAKS THE TRUTH, PEOPLE THAT WANT SPEAK THE TRUTH HATES YOU. Notice how people treated Jesus, for speaking the truth.. they wanted to kill him, and they are the same today. They will want to kill you, spiritually, they will talk about you and try to kill your influence. Anything they can do to kill you, so no one will receive you, when you try to help them. God only operates through faith. And if they have killed your influence, you can't help them. God only moves through faith in his word..
If you don't have confidence in someone, you want hear nothing they say. I have told some people things, and they wouldn't listen, and then the preacher would tell them the same thing in his sermon, and they believed every word of it. I'm sure you have experienced, that too. the Bible says a poor man's wisdom is despised. Have you heard your pastor say, how sorry he was, that there was a death, in so and so's family, and for the church to pray for them, and then never mention the death that was in your family, and you set there confused, and try to make an excuse for him. well there is no excuse to make, he sinned, I wouldn't treat a dog that way. And he made sure, he mentioned, them certain one's, cause they probably, had more money than you do, and he don't want to loss that money, he don't care about you or them either. CAUSE GOD MAKES

NO DIFFERENCE. He don't love one no more than the other.
See the sins in the pulpit. We over look, but they don't need to be over looked, you need to find you another church, unless he has already got you brain washed, and you can't leave, if so, you better be finding you someone, that can help you get free.
WHEN A SNAKE CHARMS A BIRD they can't move or run away no matter how hard they try. That trance has to be broken first, before that bird can run.
Don't let no man bring you in bondage, you are free to obey God, be faithful to your church, if the preacher is living right. When God tells you to do something, you better not let them bring you into bondage.
Sometimes people mean well and are trying to help, but they are carnal, and don't know the mind of the Lord. The enemy will say to me who are you to tell anybody anything, I am someone that has been, deceived by you devil, and I'm trying to help people to not believe your lies, like I once did, that's my only purpose. THINK ABOUT IT. From someone who cares.
DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES THAT I DID FALLING
IN THE DEVILS TRAPS.

HARLOT CHURCHES

HER HOUSE IS THE WAY TO HELL: for she hath cast down many wounded, yea, many strong men, have been slain by her.
PROVERBS 7:27..Her house is the way to hell, going down to the chambers of death. Proverbs 7: 7, And beheld among the simple ones, I discerned among the youths, a young man void of understanding, verse 8..Passing through the street near her corner; And he went the way to her house. verse 9.. In the twilight, in the evening, in the black and dark night: And, behold, there met him a woman with the attire of an harlot, and subtil of heart. Verse 11..She is loud and stubborn; her feet abide not in her house. Verse 12..Now is she without, now in the streets, and lieth in wait at every corner. WHICH IS THE
HARLOT CHURCH, that teaches contrary to the word of God. She
is stubborn she will not obey his word.
VERSE 23..TILL A DART STRIKE THROUGH HIS LIVER: AS A BIRD HASTETH TO THE SNARE, AND KNOWETH NOT, THAT IT IS FOR HIS LIFE. This is what happen to me, when I got mixed up in the wrong churches.
I thought all churches belong to God, but I was in for a big shock. My lack of understanding of Gods word got, me in a mess. You don't mess around in the WHORE CHURCH. She is out to kill, all Gods chosen seed. That is borned of his spirit.
WHEN YOU HAVE A DART STRIKE THROUGH YOUR LIVER. As everyone knows I'm sure, when your liver has poisons in it, it will go through your whole body, and kill you.
The poison from false teaching, will kill you spiritually. This is what the false church does, it poisons your spirit, and soon you are, in a deceiving spirit, instead of Gods spirit. You are filled with lies, instead of the word of God. If it's not the word of God, it want work. Then you become confused, and can't understand why it's not working. A little leaven, leaventh the whole lump. It has got to be the pure word of God, for it to work. It can't be mixed with lies, that's contrary to the word of God. The pharisees and Sadducee's religion. You have made the word of God of none effect, with your tradition. THERE IS TWO CHURCHES, the false and the true. You will have to pray and read his word to know the difference. It is very dangerous to go to the wrong church, cause they lie in wait to destroy you.
I WAS TOTALLY BRAIN WASHED IN THE SERPENT HANDLING CHURCH.
And though, that, I would miss heaven, if I didn't go to this kind of church. Only the mercy's of God, got me out of that mess. They had me believing if I didn't handle snakes, that I couldn't go to heaven. And they would drill that in your head. They actually believe that, it is sad. But, thank God he has delivered me from, all this poison that has been put in my spirit, and now the Lord, is putting the pure word of God into my
spirit. The Bible says my sheep know my voice, and a stranger, they will not follow. If I had of listened to Him, I wouldn't have got, in such a mess. But I was judging with my eyes and stop listening, to His still small voice, inside me. I keep seeing all the people take up serpents, drinking poison, and man to me this was the great power of God. It couldn't be God talking to me, and telling me this wasn't right. Who was I anyway, you can see, they have, more of God, than you do. Keep in mind I am not throwing stones, at the serpent handling churches. This is in all denominations. I'm using this one as an example...this is also in the Jesus name, the baptist, the church of God, and on and on. There is born again Christians in all churches, just make sure they stay in the word, and not add to or take away. I started out in the baptist, I was born again in the baptist. I was still a christian when I changed to the holiness. The building your are in, is not the point, it is what is in your heart, are you serving God or man. Are you letting his word guide your directions, or are you letting man, guide you.
The Bible says, in Galatians 1:8, But though, we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which, we have preached unto you, let them be accursed. If they pray fire down out of heaven, it wouldn't make me believe in them now, I don't care what people do, it don't move me no more. Remember moses, how the musicians did almost everything moses did. The only thing that moves me is CHARITY, cause God is love, and anything out side of this is the DEVIL. They can give their body's to be burned, and if they have not charity it profits them nothing. Nothing confuses me any more, it's either truth or lies. I don't make no excuses, for any one. Well, he's a good old boy, yea, I use to do this, but the Bible says, if the blind follow the blind, they will both fall into the ditch. No matter how good they are. We don't judge by, how good they are, but if they have the word of God in them. They will be bearing the fruits, Galatians 5:22, and if they don't have God they will be bearing, bad fruit, Gal. 5:19.
There is nothing confusing about it, just take the Bible for what it says.
I'm sure you've read my story's, it took, about a year to mend from that snake bite. My arm is fine, the nerves is messed up, a bit, and my fingers don't work perfect, but good enough to still play music, which I love to do. And I think God for that, its just enough, to never let me forget, what God has brought me through. Some people lose their arms and hands, from this and some lose their lives. so I have the rest of my life to thank Him, for what He has done. I'm saying that, to say this, the poison from the snake, I got over pretty quick. But the poison from the church teaching, poisoned my whole spirit man, keep in mind again, I'm not talking, about no certain church, or what title over the door. But devils in sheep's clothing, this is in ALL CHURCHES, AND I HAVE BEEN IN A LOT OF THEM, AND AM LIVING PROOF. God had to set me free, in the tent revival.
which was about twenty years later. This is how deadly the poison from rotten doctrines can be. It will dam your soul. God was merciful, to me or I would have ended up in HELL, believing a lie. What ever you set under is what you will become. Oh you say not me, well set there for a while and see. If I hadn't of gotten help from a prophet, I would still be bound. Honey it took a higher power to deliver me, not a put on or half in, but a powerful anointing, from someone that had the real anointing from God in them. I appreciate and give honor where honor is due. But is was God that set me free. It was God in the man. I have been a casualty in the war, I fell into the hands of the enemy. I was seduced by her lies, wounded and put in her prison. But I have been rescued, by the army of God. They have rescued me from the prison camps of the enemy. And the Captain of our army has, healed me of all my wounds, and now I am back in the war. God's army.
I HAVE LEARNED THE HARD WAY. TO LISTEN TO OUR CAPTAIN'S EVERY COMMAND. And be on guard, for the enemy's attacks. Making sure that I get the whole armour of God on this time, so when the enemy attacks, I will have the shield of faith, the sword of the spirit, the helmet of salvation, my loins girt with truth, and the breastplate of righteousness, and my feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace, and be able to quench all the fiery darts of the enemy.....Ephesians 6:14
Praying daily and reading the word, and letting Him bring my flesh under subjection to His spirit. Getting rid of all the strong holds of the flesh.
Working on getting rid of all the weights and sins that so easily
besets me. Letting him mold me into a soldier that can fight on the front line and concur, the enemy. And help free the ones that the enemy has taken captive.For I am on the road to recovery, and will be trained, and molded by our captain, this time. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places..Ephesians 6:11
MAY I EVER BE FAITHFUL

DEVIL'S NIGHTMARE

Ezekiel 9:1..
He cried also in mine ears with a loud voice, saying, Cause them that charge over the city to draw near, even every man with his destroying weapon in his hand.
2..And behold, six men came from the way of the higher gate, which lieth toward the north, and every man a slaughter weapon in his hand; and one man among them, was clothed with linen, with a writer's ink horn by his side; and they went in and stood beside the brazen altar.
3..And the Lord said unto him, Go through the midst of the city, through the midst of Jerusalem, and set a mark, upon the foreheads of the men that sigh and that cry for all the abominations that be done in the midst thereof. 5..And to the others he said in mine hearing, Go ye after him through the city, and smite; let not your eye spare, neither pity:
6...Slay utterly old and young, both maids, and little children, and women:
But come not near any man upon whom is the mark; an begin at my sanctuary. Then they began at the ancient men which were before the house.
9...Then said he unto me, The iniquity of the house of Israel and Judah is exceeding great, and the land is full of blood, and the city full of perverseness; for they say, THE LORD HATH FORSAKEN THE EARTH, AND THE LORD SEETH NOT..
11...And behold, the man clothed with linen, which had the ink horn by his side, reported the matter, saying, I have done as thou hast commanded me. God is raising up a army. The little no body's, is fixing to come on the scene and they are goings to be the devil's nigh mare.
They are fixing to go to war with the devils, that are setting in the temple of God. Temple of God, which is people with the spirit of the devil in them. Setting in the churches, deceiving the people, claiming to be God's anointing, with their sin's covered. But God's army is fixing to pull up their skirts and let the people see all the abominations, they are doing in the dark. DO YOU WANT TO BE THE DEVIL'S NIGHTMARE and fight in the war, and eliminate these false prophets, preachers that are setting in the temple of God. Do you want to be the eliminator or the devil's nightmare. To uncover Jezebel's skirt, which means her sins. God can't have no cowards on the front lines. You are going to have to have a backbone of steel. Not afraid of the devils darts. He has to take you to this place. By going through the fires. When you're in the fire you're down there, in Egypt with them. The best soldier, is one that has, tasted of the devils slop. When the devil comes again you, and calls you a devil, don't run, but stand tall and defeat him. In the spirit of Christ, not hate. Remember love is a winner, devil can't stand that spirit. He hates God and God is love. That's why he hates love. He is always trying to get you to lose that love. In
Ezekiel 8:6..He said further more unto me, son of man, seeth thou what they do? even the great abominations that the house of Israel committeth here, that I should go far off from "MY" sanctuary? But turn thee yet again, and thou shalt see greater abominations.
The Lord began to take me step by step through the abominations of the church's. All the time He knew, in the latter end, he would use me to speak His word and cry against, the abominations of the churches. He opened my eyes little at a time. Until I seen it in its full. When I first started going to church, I was young and innocent, my mom and dad didn't teach me about the facts of life. I didn't know the church's was filled with lustful men and women. God's real people don't have this in them, but I didn't know that there was a true and a false church. I didn't know then but as God takes my mind back, and lets me remember things. I know now what was going on. I was young, innocent, pretty, long blond hair and blue eyes. And the preachers loved it. One day riding the church bus home, I was in high school then. And the driver of the church bus, let everyone off but me, I was the last one to get home. He stopped and turned around, I was setting in the seat behind him, he put his hand on my leg and said I've always loved you. Scared me to death. This man was bald and in his sixty's. That was the end of the bus for me. So, so, so, many other things. God help these people.
7...And he brought me to the door of the court; and when I looked, behold a hole in the wall.
8..Then said he unto me, Son of man, dig now in the wall; and when I had digged in the wall, behold a door. If we dig into His word he will uncover all these hidden sins, that are covered up by the wolves in the pulpits. It maybe so ugly you don't want to see it.
9. And he said unto me, go in, and behold the wicked abominations that they do here. Poor saint are setting in churches and seeing all these things going on, and say well it's the only place, that they preach the truth. And over looking their sins. This is insane. We're more worried about a convenient, close by church to go to, than our souls.
You can't set under someone if their not living it. You will get their spirit in you and you will be doing the same thing. If their spirit isn't right, what will they convert you to. They will convert you to dirt just like them.
10..So I went in and saw; and behold every form of creeping things, and abominable beast, and all the idols of the house of Israel, portrayed upon the wall round about.. Their is so much going on, one church I went to once. The preacher was a ball of fire. They don't fool me now, but then I didn't know. All the young people loved him. My sister didn't like the way he would look at me. Why I thought, she don't know what See's talking about. He's a great man of God. Look at all the things that God is doing here. We had a Holy Ghost revival every night, so I thought. My sister was right. One day I went to visit my great anointed pastor and his wife. His wife was taking a shower. I thought nothing about it, and I thought, I was on holy ground. I was in my late twenty I think at this time. He ask me to set down, he was always so nice and respectful. They lived in a mansion, robbing the church probably.. We talked a little, he got up and walked over toward me and gabbed me and tried to kiss me, he said there was something else he would like to give me. You can figure it out. I left out of there. I was totally bewildered, confused and hurt. Well I want tell what I had to go through after that, but God took care of me. I'd just like for one to try it on me know. I'm not confused any more. They would get so rebuked, it wouldn't be funny. I am the Lord's vessel, and no devil is going to touch me. All their going to get from me is "thus saith the Lord".
11...and there stood before them seventy men of the ancients of the house of Israel, and in the midst of them, stood Jaazaniah the son of Shaphan, with every man his censer in his hand; and a thick cloud of incense went up.
Look at the worship service they were doing here. Look at all the abominations, which is lust, women with their breasts showing and half their legs, with their split tail skirts. Showing every curve in their body. This is lust. The women is still bound by lust. If there was a holy preacher in the mist, he would cast these spirits out of the women. I don't blame them, I blame the sorry preachers. And so much more filth I have seen in the church's, somethings I wouldn't even write about. And the lusting preachers, don't bother these whorish women, why? The devil wants to destroy the holy women, the ones that has their clothes on and is letting the man child, come alive in them.. He has already got the ones that is half naked so why waste his time. So they are wolves in sheep's clothing. There is spirits of greed, respect of person, all the works of the flesh. So many spirits. Oh God please make me a devil's nightmare. Please, please God.
Oh ! "how I want to proclaim His holiness and his Divine righteous".
Now don't get all carried away, we are to dress modest, you can over dress or under dress. Humbleness is not going dirty. Some church people, want use deodorant, and you can sure tell it. Some ware old greasy long hair, get fat and want take care of their selves. This ain't humbleness, it's sorriness. I believe in being very neat and clean. Some Christian's under dress and some over dress. I've had them say to me, why don't you start eating a lot and get fat, and that way, the preachers want look so much. I have to fast, I can't eat like a pig. No they need to get lust out of them if, if they can't look at you with out having a problem. Holy people don't have this problem. What Christians don't understand, is if a man or woman has lust in them, they are void of God, to start with. Well some will say, I'll ware my dress two or three sizes to big, so they want lust. I'm not going to look like a slob, they will have to get right with God. The point I am trying to make is, if you dress modest and do right, you're not causing them to sin. If you go half naked then you are to blame. This is crazy, God's people don't lust to start with. It's devil's in the pulpit.
12...Then said he unto me, Son of man, hast thou SEEN WHAT THE ANCIENTS OF THE HOUSE OF ISRAEL DO IN THE DARK, every man in the chambers of his imagery? for they say, THE LORD SEETH US NOT; THE LORD HATH FORSAKEN THE EARTH...
The ancient, which is the elders, set there on their thrones, and want let the anointed vessels obey God.
I obey him any way, I'm not afraid of them any more. And I'm not blinded to what they are doing, like I use to be.
They are top dog , and if you move they will sing you down, or set you down...This use to confuse me, but not any more. My husband preached one night at a church. I played the piano and helped them sing. The spirit of the Lord moved upon me to testify after I got done singing. The spirit of the Lord was very powerful on me. The people got a blessing from my testimony, BUT the preacher, when I set down, said now we don't believe in women preachers. He was so dead, and went on and on, while he was talking, the spirit of the Lord began to move inside me again. I said Lord if I stand up again, they want believe me after he gets done. But I just have to obey my master. When he got done I stood up, he turned white, I keep a good spirit, but the Lord moved on me to talk some more. Things he had done for me. I never mentioned nothing the preacher said. The people loved it. They got blessed preacher or not.
There was a man here in town, that would pray and crawl across the floor or the pulpit and cry, and handle snakes. This is not throwing stones at the serpent church, it's in all of them. He would preach and cry like a baby. And all the time he was in the motel with one of the women, in the church. Poor people of the church, was torn in pieces. And his blessed wife, is still serving God. People better wake up..We don't judge by the way people cry and seem to be humble. It don't matter how much they shimmy and shake. Most of the time when I feel the anointing, I don't move a part of my body. You wouldn't even know I was feeling nothing. It's very powerful when it moves inside you. You learn how to respond to it. Sometimes he shouts me, that's good, but when he begins to use my ears to listen, my eyes and mouth it is more powerful. See I'm setting there quiet, and He's looking through my eyes. That is awesome. My flesh hears one thing, but he starts using my ears and he hears their inner cry. My mouth would say one thing, but He begins to use, my mouth and he, says things that the other person needs to hear, he knows what they need, to hear, I don't. Letting him use your members, to minister to others. This is powerful. Wait on Him, let Him do it instead of you. "This is awesome".
13...He said also unto me, turn thee yet again, and thou shall see greater abominations that they do.
Now they ordain homosexual's..what could be worse than this, in God's house. They do their little pervert acts and whip their mouths and don't even blush. Their conscience is seared.
14..Then he brought me to the door of the gate of the Lord's house which was toward the north; and, behold, there sat women weeping for Tammuz.
15..Then said he unto me, Hast thou seen this, O son of man? turn thee yet again, and thou shalt see greater abominations than these.
I had one preacher put me over the music. You do what ever you want to, what you say goes. you take the piano from the one that is playing it, an you play it. They were wealthy, and had a horrible spirit. I learned this later. They wanted me to get in their click, I was a faith walker, man I didn't believe in all this slop. Before, the preacher put me in charge and before, I started seeing all the dirt under the rug. I played music in the funeral homes, they were really trying to make me sophisticated. The devil has all kinds of approaches. And sometimes we're not aware of his device's. Especially if there isn't not a prophet around crying against sin. When we are young in the Lord, we can't see to good, it takes the eyes of a seer. Well I was well educated and knew how to dress well. Unaware, I started becoming sophisticated, I knew how to dress in silk and satin, man was I looking good, for the devils, I knew how to be extremely, feminine. High heels and all. That spirit was taking hold of me. Take a poor girl, and start giving her everything, WOW, how my flesh loved it. But I was God's chosen, I couldn't forget the the times he had touched me. Nothing could fill this void. As David was confronted by the prophet, I also couldn't see what the devil was doing. When I was told to take the piano seat from the girl, that was playing, cause she wasn't good enough. The righteous part of me, like David had, when the prophet confronted him, in second Sam.12: David said the man ought to die. That was still in me, and I could not and would not take her seat. That made me quiet the music, cause I would not hurt her, like they wanted me to. The world church, will take you from a humble faith walker, with live or did faith, and mold you into, a sophisticated whore, when you take on these other spirits, you are committing spiritual adultery with the whore church. You are unfaithful to your husband, which is Jesus. The whore church has took on the ways of the world. God says come out of her my people. You know what the preachers are doing, I'll tell you what their doing, back up in verse 12...... in chamber's of his imagery: image, means mental picture, which is in our mind, they are laying on their beds of imagery, day dreaming of how they would like to lay with you....more, more dirt, but it would take a book to write it all.
They can't fool me now, I can feel their old dirty spirit. God's Holy Ghost is in me now, it's like a radio antenna. It picks up all these pervert spirits.
16..And he brought me into the inner court of the Lord's house, and , behold, at the door of the temple of the Lord, between the porch and the altar, were about five and twenty men, with their backs toward the temple of the Lord, and their faces toward the east; and they worshiped the sun toward the east.
People are worshiping everything but God. They don't even know when the sabbath is. This is why they are deceived so easy. They want read God's word to find out nothing. Oh! they say, I know he is a man of God, look at those shoes and suit he is waring and look at that fine car he is in...You would drive the best to, if you were a thief like him. Education, material things has nothing to do with it. We have to gets God's word through the spirit. Your college degrees want do it. It is useless.
He can use you to talk to Caesar, Governor, and so on like he did Paul. But you will go in the desert and learn from God first. Educated people want listen to uneducated people, most want anyway, some might. Nor does the uneducated listen to the educated. The sophisticated class, want listen to the unsophisticated class. And so on. He can use you to speak to all classes of people, if you will be all things to all people like Paul, He was very educated.
17..Then he said unto me, Hast thou seen this, O son of man? Is it a light thing to the house of Judah that they commit the abominations which they commit here? for they have filled the land with violence, and have returned to revoke me to anger; and, lo, they put the branch to their nose.
18..Therefore will I also deal in fury; mine eye shall not spare, neither will I have pity; and though they cry in mine ears with a loud voice, yet will I not hear them.
This whore church is all a stink in God's nostrils...He's not hearing and answering their prayers. All they are going to get from Him is his fury.
See God is bringing his little sheep out of these whore houses, they can't see what the wolves are doing to them. And God loves his sleep and HE WILL GET THEM OUT.
I WANT TO BE LIKE A CAN OF RAID. Roaches usually come out in the dark. Some are brave and come out in the day. But usually they go everywhere in the dark...I hate them they are dirty and nasty. When you get one they will hatch a thousand seems like. I want to be like the commerical on television, When raid shows up the roaches have had it.
I want to be the devil's nightmare, when he see's me coming, He will run and if there is any brave devils that come out in the light. They have had it. The devil want come to the light, afraid his evil deeds will be uncovered. Ezekiel 13:10.. Because, even because they have seduced my people, saying, Peace; and there was no peace, and one built up a wall, and, lo, others daubed it with untempered morter;
11..Say unto them which daub it with untempered morter, that it shall fall; there shall be a overflowing shower; and ye, O great hailstones, shall fall; and a stormy wind shall rent it.
12..Lo, when the wall is fallen, shall it not be said unto you, where is the daubing where with ye have daubed it?
22..Because with lies ye have made the heart of the righteous sad, whom I have not made sad; and strengthened the hands of the wicked, that he should not return from his wicked way, by promising him life;
23..therefore ye shall see no more vanity, nor divine divination's; for I will DELIVER MY PEOPLE OUT OF YOUR HAND; AND YE SHALL KNOW THAT I AM THE LORD.
LETS BE THE DEVIL'S NIGHTMARE. God's not bringing us out of Egypt to keep quiet about it. Lets cry loud and spare not. Lets help get God's people out of Egypt. God's spirit don't pet this, he is going to destroy all that don't sigh and cry over all the abominations, done in the churches. Their not getting by. HE'S NOT ASLEEP.

TEMPTED AND TRIED

The more I'm tired the better He can mold me, to change my life completely, to fit His perfect will. If I'm successful walking through dark valleys, He'll give me strength to climb the highest hill. Now I'll not question trials that bring me to my knees, that's just His way of telling me He loves me.

THIS HAPPEN BEFORE GOD SET ME FREE AT THE BIG TENT MEETING.
My only purpose in writing this is to encourage those that are going through the same things,to give them hope. My bondage lasted about twenty years. The children of Israel were in bondage for forty years.


AND MY DEAR FRIENDS WHEN GOD GETS READY TO MOVE. ALL HELL CAN'T STOP HIM. He may not come when we want Him too, but He's right on time. This may be funny, but I never could sing without singing through my nose and people would say let it out, well I didn't know how to let it out. I sang all my life through my nose. The other day after I got through praying. I felt an abundance of air in my lungs,
and I began to play and sing and you would not, believe the voice that came out of me. It was coming from way down inside my stomach, felt like. The anointing of God was bringing it out. No more through the nose, singing for me. Everyone is amazed! "even me". And I bowed my knees and cry ed and thanked him graciously. When you been through as much, as I have you learn who, to give the honor to. SO, SEE THERE IS HOPE FOR US THAT CAN'T SING. Why didn't he get in my voice and bring it out sooner? Was I really singing for him? NO WHEN HE BECOMES FIRST IN YOUR LIFE, THEN YOU, ARE SINGING FOR HIM and he will anoint you. You can't just say He's first, but you will have to prove it like Job In the ash box. Everyone wants to be like Moses, until they get in the fire. Then all you hear them do is complain. I'm really going through it, they will say. Why is God letting this happen to me? Be a man and be honored to suffer for Him.

I try ed to go to one church years, after that snake had bite me, and after this one, it would be the last time that, I would ever take part in church. I tried to go some, later to seek help, but I would never take part in nothing else, in the church world, for this one finished destroying me. I was out of it after this one, to never be able to function again, or so the devil though. I had been convinced by some one, that I had been in the wrong Church's, all my life, and this was really the one, that could put all the broken pieces of my life back together again. It was a Jesus Name Church. This was years after, that snake had bite me. I heard that they were on the solid rock, so I started attended the church trying to get my life back together. My nerves bothered me real bad, trying to go, but I wanted God back, like I use to have him. Little did I know that the preacher had lost all faith in God. His son drowned when he was thirteen years old, in a pond, and he blamed God for it, and he lost all faith. Which I felt sorry for him and began to love him and his family. I Played music in their church, and little by little I began to get weak in faith, not knowing why, but now I realize that his unbelief effected everyone around him. It is dangerous to go to some churches, they will sap all the life out of you, and you want even know what is wrong. You will be so dead all the spiritual life will drain from you. I was already half dead myself, cause I had been through so much myself, and was seeking help from God myself. I try ed not too get close to anyone, due to the fact that I had been through so much, already.

One Sunday I was playing the piano before church started..which I love to do, I would go early to make sure all the music was in tune. I had began to think that this was the church for me...I was doing pretty good the pastor and his wife seem to love me. Then people began to get jealous of me. Have you ever had this happen to you? Saul in the bible became jealous of David and try ed to kill him..you've read the story in the book of first Samuel. The spirit of jealous is cruel. It can do a lot of damage to a young christian. It use too, cause me to stop going to church. And it would cause me too stop praying, which will cause you to lose your relationship with God. I didn't realize that I was giving up the only one that could heal my broken heart. That is the time to run to his feet and start crying out to him isn't the first
human reaction, when something happens to you, is to with draw back from prayer. This is the time to run to your prayer closet. I use to be bad to do this. But I have made up my mind, that when this happens to me, I am going to tell it to my best friend, and the greatest thing about this is that, he takes the pain away. When we don't pray we have to carry our hurt and pain, and keep getting in worse shape. Why do we do this? Do you like being miserable, if you do just don't pray. If you want to be happy pray. It's took going through hell for me to learn this.

WELL BACK TO THE CHURCH I WAS ATTENDING. I had a nervous break down, after I came out of that snake, church I was already a mess. after what I'm fixing to tell you, I began to get hate in my heart. and the divorce on top of this. The preachers wife told me to come in her office, I was happy that morning, I had been playing music, she said I heard, that you said you were having an afair with my husband. Can you believe this after all I had been through? Now this! She talk to me like I was some kind of a dog. I left the church crying. She wouldn't believe nothing I said, my heart was taring out of me; her son bowed his head in shame, he knew I would never say such a thing. Who would be that stupid, anyway. She was jealous of everyone, and this was her way of getting rid of me I guess. This done me in. My heart and mind was, well There is no words to describe what I felt like. I had, had it with church this was it. See my reactions, I stopped loving the most important thing in my life, JESUS. He hadn't done anything to me, so what if the preachers wife was so full of the devil, that she torn me to pieces, this shouldn't have caused me to stop talking to my dearest friend (Jesus) he didn't do it to me. If I had of went to him he would have healed my broken heart. I have no hate in my heart for this lady. I pray she will get her heart right with God. God's love, (loves all), no bad feelings at all toward anyone only compassion. But before God set me free, I hated her. The point I'm trying to make is, DON'T LET PEOPLE CAUSE YOU TO LOSE OUT WITH GOD. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but HE is faithful, and will deliver us out of them all if we hold to Him. Why let people cause us to fall. We must be willing to suffer for our dear Saviour...look what all he had to suffer for us.

TAKE THIS WHOLE WORLD BUT GIVE ME JESUS. Put him first and oh just see what a relationship you will have with him. Its worth more than anything in this world. Oh yes, our hearts will be broken and we will feel like it is being torn out of us. But friends it want last long, if we take it to him. That keeps me going, cause, I know it want last long, just soon as I fall into his loving arms, he will take it all away.

I'VE LEARNED THE HARD WAY AND I WILL NOT LET PEOPLE THAT IS FULL OF THE DEVIL, CAUSE ME TO LOSE OUT WITH JESUS
(AGAIN) cause I've learned that anybody, that is moving out side of love is not of God. For (God) is love. I John 3:14, We know that we have passed from death unto life, because we love the brethren, it will cause you too, not run each other down, but pray for our enemies, no matter what they do to us. Do you believe the Bible, if you do then try praying for your enemies. You say you can't love them, and forgive them. "That is the point" we can't, but if we pray. God will give us love and drive all the hate out, just keep praying till he does. We have to seek him like we would, If we lost a hundred dollar bill, in our house. You would tare the house down looking for it, wouldn't you? He is much more important than a hundred dollar bill. If He's, not then he may not hear you. He don't want your second best. Do you like to be second with your husband, everybody else before you? No If he's not worth no more than that, to us then we don't deserve him. He is worth more than a hundred dollar bill isn't he, well not to some people. All he wants is for us to love HIM. Think about it read the old bible and notice his personality, the way he feels, thinks, watch how he wants his people to love him, and obey him. Do you like it when your children don't obey you? He feels the same way and be thankful, if you're thankful for the beans you have, he just might give you some corn bread to go with them. Oh what
a beautiful SAVIOUR we have, and what he will do for you, if we let him be part of everything that we do. Instead of acting like he's not there and come to him when we just want something or the devil is driving us crazy. How do you feel when your kids or someone only comes around when they just need something. HE HAS FEELINGS TOO. He's not flying out in space somewhere. He wants us to love Him, after all he created us.

GET YOUR EYES OFF OF POOR MISERABLE PEOPLE. Stop comparing God to people. So what, if everyone fails you, what does this have to do with God. He didn't fail you did he?

WHAT IF EVERYONE YOU KNOW IS A HYPOCRITE. Make up your mind that you are going to be a real christian and if everyone else wants to go to hell, don't let them take you with them. I use to doubt, that even the bible existed. WHY? Because I could see no signs of him in people. I decided to try it for my self, and see if it works. Try loving your enemies, stop arguing and fighting. Try believing the bible for once, and see if it works. Why not put it to the test. Pray and get the hate out of you. Pray until God fills you with his love. When you look at someone that has done you wrong, and you begin to have a bad feeling, toward them, go and pray until you can look at them with love. See if God don't start turning things around for you. He will I know he will. If you are broke or don't have much money and can't make ends meet, try taking the bible and see what it says about the matter. Give and it shall be given unto you. Pray over your bills, stop worrying, trust, believe and, He will be faithful. He said seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these other things will be added unto you. .Well I try it, they say and it didn't work for me. Then you didn't put Him first first. My dear friends it will works. I am seeing it work. If your children turn against you, if your marriage is in a mess, stop worrying about it. Just start praying and put it out of your mind, put God first and he will work it out. Don't look at the storm, keep your eyes on Jesus. If things don't get no better, maybe you're better off with out them. Just put God first and he will be your dearest friend and your shelter from the storm. You can't just tell him you love him you have to prove it. You will go through the fire of afflictions but in the end he will, restore and give you more than you had before. We don't need riches, we need the the riches of Christ, which is peace and love and all the fruits of the spirit and be able to help people find God in their life's. There is nothing that can separate you from the love of god. You have to let it go your self, get your feeling dead and let Jesus come alive in you and start letting him use you for his kingdom, and stop letting frail people keep you from getting this in your life. Everyone is wanting the great POWER OF GOD. Love is where the power is, power to turn a person from darkness unto light.

WHEN YOU SET YOUR HEART AND MIND TO SEEK GOD, all
hell will break out the enemy will come at you on every side, you will stagger at your wits end. Don't give up, keep praying don't go by feeling, go by faith, you will think you are going no where, but be faithful it will work.It is like planting a garden, you put the seed in the ground and you don't see nothing for a while, but before to long you will begin to see a little plant spring up. Don't try to figure out how it will happen, just keep hoeing your garden. Keep all the crab grass out of it, by praying and killing out what the devil tries to plant beside your little tender plant. Before long it will grow tall and the crab grass can't choke the life out of it. Try it isn't it worth trying. I'm tired of letting people destroy my relationship with God. It is worth fighting for and I'm going to fight with everything in me. Life is but a dressing room for the next life to come. We're as a flower that fades away, here today and gone tomorrow. We have been through enough hell here, I sure don't want to go to one worse, than the one we're in right now. Look up and encourage yourself in the Lord as, David in the bible did. Look to the hills from which cometh your help. If no one else encourages you, encourage your self, quiet whining, be men. Time is getting late, work while it is day for night cometh when no man can work. We can do it, we can obtain that city, we can and no devil can stop us. How about it are you ready to start fighting. Are you sick and tired of being sick and tired. Let's get a hold of the horns of the alter, and start praying with all our hearts. You don't have to be a in a church house to pray. People usually just pray when, they are around others, just to make everybody think they really got something . Let god help you find a church, where they have the love of god. You say there isn't any no more, oh but there is. Jesus said he had 7000 men that had never bowed their, knee to the devil, in the old bible, when one man of God was feeling sorry for his self. God will direct your paths if you let him, don't let men lead you, let God lead you. Stop listening to every body and listen to God for a while. make sure it is God talking through them. Usually, if it is God he will be dealing with you about the same thing and it will confirm it in your heart. For some reason the last thing people wants to do is pray, that is what is wrong with everybody, they set around and watch dirty television and feel sorry for their self. It's time for us to wake up. What ever you need in your life God can give it to you, if you will pray, fast and read your bible, and don't let no one stop you no matter what. And please learn to listen, to the Spirit of God in you, instead of listening to man. remember the offel shape I got in, for listing to man. He will lead and guide us, just let him do it. You better make sure its God speaking to you. If they are speaking contrary to the bible you best not listen. For the spirit and the word agrees. If the spirit in you or someone else is speaking, and its not going alone with the word of God, it is a lie and of the devil, no matter how good or holy they seem to be, If an angel from heaven speaks contrary to the word of God, Jesus said, let them be accursed. And anything moving out side of love is of the devil, cause God is love remember that. The bible says let no MAN deceive you. And believe me there is plenty of deceivers out there, that looks like angels and are devils underneath that wool. The bible says, you shall know them by their fruit. And they are out for one thing to destroy you. If they came to you looking like the devil, you wouldn't have any trouble, but they come to you like
angels. Their purpose is for you to get confidence in them and then kill you. Don't be so, simple minded, Proverbs 7: 23, The simple believeth every word, but the prudent man looketh well to his going. (Wake up) and be real, put your feeling under the blood of Jesus, its time we wake up and read Gods word and get all this other stuff out of our minds, stop worrying and start praying. So what if the preacher runs off with another woman. Jesus didn't run off, did he? He's still with you, let the preacher leave, if he had rather have lust than God. You're better off with our him. Thank God he's gone and that he didn't seduce you. Just pray for him, He's not God. There is nothing that can compare to Jesus, nothing satisfies like Jesus. Take this whole world but give me Jesus. He can give you much better than the devil can if you need a wife, if you are lonely, pray that God will send you someone, that loves him and will love you and treat you right. HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH HE BLEED AND DIED FOR you. LET'S RETURN HIS LOVE, AND ADORE HIM FOR WHAT HE HAS DONE FOR US
There was a time in my life I could not talk like this, cause I had let the devil, use people to cause me to become full of hate. No one wants to live that kind of a life, it is better to love and be hurt, than to live with hate in your heart. It is the most terrible life anyone could ever live. So why live that way. Why not humble yourself and let God take it out of your heart. A lot of Christians are miserable and is trying to live for God, with hate in them for their brothers. You can't over ride sin, but we have to fix these things, look at all the people that is hurting that is around you. Everyone that is connected to you is suffering. If your branch is infected with some kind of a disease, all the little branches on your limb is suffering, and will soon die if you don't get something done for it. The sap from the tree can't flow through our branches . We will be come dry and soon have to be cut off the vine.

WELL GOD KNOWS MY HEART SOME WILL SAY. Yes he does, and he knows it's full of sin, and disobedience. Remember he loves you very much, he died for you, but you have to let him get the sin out of you. We have to do our first works over, he can't draw nigh to you with sin. Their is no excuses for sin, we have a road map and we have to follow it. Notice how he loved and cared for the children of Israel, as long as they obeyed Him.
I can't get no where with God, if I don't obey his word. If he says, when you do people wrong, you have to fix it with them and then come to the alter and fix it with me. You can't go around that, if you take the wrong turn with the road map you will get lost, same way with the Bible.

SOME WILL SAY WELL I AM HURT AND DEPRESSED, BECAUSE MY CHILDREN, AND SO ON, WANT VISIT ME NO MORE. I HAVE A RIGHT TO BE DEPRESSED, WHAT KIND OF A PERSON WOULD I BE, IF I DIDN'T CARE. God understands, why I'm depressed. Why I'm down, murmuring and complaining. No this is contrary to the word of God. He understands yes, but he said for us to bring our cares to him and he would carry them for us. All it does if we don't take it to him is pollute us. This is where we die daily, get all our human feeling dead, so Gods spirit can flow through us each day to help others. They don't need to see me, they need to see the fruits of the spirit working. They don't need to see me with all my head aces and murmurings. BUT GOD UNDERSTANDS THEY SAY. He understands that you are to lazy to pray and kill out your human feelings. There is no excuse for slowfulness. No excuse will hold up, Gods people perish for lack of knowledge. I have no excuse for being lazy. I have to pray if I have to crawl to my prayer closet.

GODS PREACHERS HAVE BECOME LAZY DOGS THAT CAN'T BARK. MY HUSBAND is a preacher if he lives right and is subject to God, I will be subject to him. If he don't doright, then I will not up hold him. I would be just as guilty as him, if I did that. I don't want peoples blood on my hands in the judgement. And if he is rebellous like Saul, it want make me stop serving God. I will go on with out him. I will continue to love him and be good to him, but I want support him. I ONLY SUPPORT THE RIGHT THING. Our excuses want hold up on the judgement day. The Lord usually blesses me more, when I am fighting every spirit in hell telling me I'm not able to pray. And I don't feel a thing from God, it seems he's a million miles away. I'm praying by faith not feelings of the flesh. If we went by our flesh and the way it felt, we would never pray. A five minute prayer from the heart is worth more, to God than praying for hours, timing yourself, and your heart not in it. Why are you timing yourself anyway to go boast about it. If we pray in secret he will reward us openly. People can tell if you pray. God rewards us by letting his precious spirit flow through us, you can't have that if you're to lazy to pray.

GOD HAS TOTALLY DELIVERED ME FROM ALL MY HURTS AND PAINS, the night the man of God prayed for me, the Lord took, from me all the hurt and I am left with a heart full of love and compassion for others. God has blessed me so much and has took the memory, of it all away. He only lets me remember, when he wants me to tell others about it.

ISN'T OUR SAVIOUR WONDERFUL, ISN'T HE DEVINE, OH HOW GREAT AND PRECIOUS HE IS. Just try him. ISN'T MY SAVIOUR WONDERFUL, HE HAS GIVEN ME A BRAND NEW LIFE, OF PEACE AND CONTENTMENT. He has taken all the nightmares away when I would wake up in the middle of the night screaming.

THANK YOU DEVINE MASTER MAY I EVER BE FAITHFUL

DEATH BED EXPERIENCE

My testimony, of God's great love and power.
Oh how I praise my Lord and I am not ashamed to lift up my hands, and let the world see, how I adore Him for all, he has done for me. He has preserved my life for a purpose, & I yearn after him, I can't get enough of his sweet spirit. Out of our bellies shall indeed flow rivers of living waters.
I Pray father that you will anoint this testimony, and let it pierce the hearts of each person that reads, it. Show them how very special they are and that, you make no difference in your children.

DEATH BED EXPERIENCE
To make the story short and get to the story itself. I'll began by saying at the age of fourteen I gave my heart to the Lord, in a little baptist church. I wasn't brought up, in a christian home, but I always wanted to know the Lord . I was young and didn't know much about the Lord or his word, so I could be persuaded easily, not knowing the scriptures.
One day I meet this old Christian lady, who began to tell me, where she went to church, And that in Mark 16:17 in the Bible it said they shall take up serpents. well if that is what it said I believed it. But little did I know, that God meant, if we were to take them up like Paul in the book of acts, which it was in the fire when he gathered some fire wood. As everyone knows the story I'm sure. He took it up by accident, which I certainly believe God will take care of you, if you belong to him. LITTLE DID I KNOW THAT I WAS IN FOR THE MOST HORRIBLE TIMES IN MY LIFE. I WENT FROM A LIFE FILLED WITH JOY AND PEACE, IN LOVE WITH JESUS TO: A LIFE FILLED WITH HATE, LONELINESS, ISOLATION, FOUGHT SUICIDE SPIRITS, LOST TRUST IN EVERYONE. BITTER AGAINST THE CHURCH AND BLAME THEM FOR WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO ME.
ALL THIS WAS CAUSED FROM ONE THING, (TAKING MY EYES OFF JESUS). Now I can't blame no one, but myself. The good news is that He is a great mender, He only can place all our broken pieces and put them back together again and make you a more beautiful vessel the next time. filling you with his love and compassion, for those who are hurting, the same way that you was, and let them know that there is hope and help.
YOU NEVER APPRECIATE HIM FOR, WHO AND WHAT HE CAN DO, UNTIL HE DELIVERS AND HEALS, YOU FROM THE THINGS, THAT NO DOCTOR, NO HUMAN MEANS AT ALL CAN TOUCH, OR THE MOST UP TO DATE TECHNOLOGY CAN FIND. DOCTORS CANNOT HEAL THE THE INNER MAN, AND HEAL ALL THE WOUNDS, OF THE HEART AND SOUL. HE THEN TRULY BECOMES YOUR LIFE, AND YOUR DEAREST FRIEND, AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE. YOU KNOW AND DON'T WANT TO LIVE ONE DAY WITHOUT HIM. I have handled a truck load full of serpents I guess. The Sunday I was bit, we were having a regular Sunday meeting. A lot of people was there they love watching me handle serpents, because I guess there wasn't very many women that did it. The Music began, they began to handle the serpents. I walked up front where they had the snakes and the preacher handed me one it was "A BLACK TIMBER RATTLER", one of the most deadlyest serpents in the state of Kentucky. It was laying across my two hands, I had a feeling to give it back but I wouldn't, I turned around to keep it a little longer, when I did it raised its head and bit me on the hand. It started to bite me again and the preacher grabbed it . He said later he would never forget how I looked at him, IT WAS TO SAY, YOU SAID IT WOULDN'T BITE ME ,IF I BELIEVED, "WHAT NOW". This same snake in another church service bit, a young brother, he got scared his faith failed him, so they rushed him to the hospital. They did everything they could for him. They give his the anti-venom and everything and they thought he would be fine. He was setting up in bed laughing and he suddenly fell over dead. I attended his funeral later. That was the most horrible thing I had ever saw..He was swelled so big that his body look like it was about to burst. They had a black veil pulled down over his casket lid, when they opened him..cause he was swelled so big.
BACK TO ME! I began to feel numb around my eyes, nose and mouth, as the poison began to go through my body. In about one minute and I passed out. They carried me out of the church house and took me to a house, by the church house, and lay ed me on a bed, two or three went with me, the rest stayed at church and continued on with the service. I KNEW I WAS DYING, I COULD FEEL MY SPIRIT LEAVING MY BODY. I felt like I was sinking down into a dark hole. Down, down, I was sinking, I was fallling into the pit of darkness, which is hell. Then all a sudden my spirit, come back into my body. I began to hear a sister praying as I came back. I later ask if I had died would I have went to heaven, cause all I was seeing was darkness, not realizing that, I had taken my eyes off Jesus, and had made a God out of our preacher. THOU SHALL HAVE NO OTHER GODS BEFORE ME, which will send you to hell. How easily we can do that not realizing it. My arm began to swell so big that, they had to cut my blouse off me. Blood came from around my teeth, that I had to spit up, ever so often. I threw up a pan full of poison. My arm swelled so big, it look like it belonged on a four hundred pound woman and it turned black as coal, with
big purple blood, blisters all over it. The poison destroys the tissue in your skin. As the days went by it began to smell like rotten meat, my skin was rottening. I was going into shock & my nerves was about to break down, due to so much pain..I was in so much pain for weeks on end, that my nerves began to give way on me. I slept for about 5 or 10 minutes a night, and had to set on the side of the bed to do that. My sister said my lips and gums were white, no color at all. My stool was purple, so much posion in my body. I couldn't stand or raise my head with out passsing out. My arm burned like it was in a oven, and pain on top of it. I never went to the hospital or took any kind of medicene. I was in the hands of the Lord, live or die.
THEY PRAYED AROUND THE CLOCK FOR ME. I had so much company, you couldn't believe it. Some just wanted to see what I look like, and some really cared. I never worried at all about it, I knew the Lord would take care of me, I had a child like trust in God and his people.
I became a faith warrior to many. They began to make a god out of me. Jesus is the one that is the great healer, I'm just as Job said "Wherefore I abhor myself, and repent in dust and ashes" I am nothing but dust and ashes in the MASTERS HANDS. GOD WAS BEGINNING TO SHOW ME HOW FRAIL AND WEAK MAN WAS. A lesson I needed to learn. And to learn to keep my eyes on him. "Thou shall have no other gods before me, we do this when we confident man to highly. God will let man fell us, to show us our help and trust must be in him. We are to respect and confident our leader, but know that it is God in him doing the work. We must look beyond man and look to Jesus.. No matter how much man fails, this does not change Gods faithfulness toward us. He will never leave us or forsake us, we are the ones that walk away from him.
SOMEONE HAD TO STAY BY MY BED NIGHT AND DAY. They took turns setting with me. When it was the ministers turn, the one I had the most confidence in, set by my bedside and prayed. When I was in so much pain that I couldn't bare it, they would began to pray and the lord would take the pain away so I could bare it. It never stopped but it would ease up to where I could bare it. The minister began to say things to me that broke my heart. He began to get lust in his eyes, and he was yielding to a lusting spirit. My mind could not cope with this. Here I was on my death bed, and all he had on his mind, was seducing me. My mind could not handle this, and I dare not tell no one. My dear saintly mother that never stopped praying for me, I believe is the only thing that saved me. My sister came in from Indiana and went to the police station, to try to get them to get me out of that house, where they had me. They said lady she's been in there to long, she is in the hands of a higher power. You only have aprox. forty five minutes to get to the hospital after the snake bites you. And I had been in there for days. AFTER THE NIGHTMARE WAS OVER, and the Lord began to allow me to recover. I went back to church and began to hear the man preach that had said horrible things to me. My mind became so confused, that I finally quiet going to church. I let this cause me to get in such a state of mind, that I began to want to kill myself. I stopped praying and lost my relationship with God. Because I was young in the Lord and couldn't understand. I stopped playing music and singing, which I loved so much. I just kept going down hill, until I lost everything. I got to where I couldn't go to church no where, cause when I did I would have flash backs of that preacher, and wanted to run out of the church house.
I was like a crazy man that would have to be chained. I began to get hate in my heart for all churches. And couldn't stand to see a person that looked like a saint. My hair was all long and every time I would look in the mirror, I would see them holiness women. I looked just like them, so I cut my hair on top and left the back long, so I wouldn't look like the people that I thought had drove me almost crazy.
YEARS WENT BY. I went through a horrible divorce. And it like to have finished me off. No words could ever describe the offel shape I was getting in. I began to hate everyone, the church, men, especially men. I began to put a wall around me to where no one could get to my heart again. I never wanted to love again, so I wouldn't ever get hurt again.
SO I BEGAN TO ISOLATE MYSELF. No one could reach me. I wouldn't even love a animal, cause when I did they would get killed or something. So I began to live a very lonely life. I even took on another personality. I cut up and laughed and acted the fool a lot to hid the pain, pain that I could not bare or cope with. I couldn't get it sorted out in my head, all that had happened to me. I just couldn't deal with all the things that I was going through, so I just pretended it didn't exist. I became the most miserable person in the whole world. I GOT ME A GOOD JOB AFTER THE DIVORCE. Everyone thought I was fine, I really could pretend good I had learned how to do that. I worked until I was able to have me a home built, had a conversion van, a pocket full of credit cards and could get anything that I wanted. Everyone thought I had it made, and I was so miserable I could never tell how horribly, miserable I was.
Later I began to try to go back to church. I never took off my dresses, everyone still thought I was still an angel. I began to go to church, I wanted to see how many hypocrites there was in them. You see in my heart I was really crying out for God to help me. But I had got in such a shape, I would never be worth anything in the church. I had so many problems. My nerves would get so bad when I would go to church, I would break out all over. I could never be able to function in church again. I had so much hate against the church. I would go and just see if anyone knew the condition that I was in. Most of them didn't know a thing they thought I was a angel, cause I had a dress on. Years went by I finally had to quit my job, my nerves go so bad, when I would drive. I would have to pull off the road and set for a while, until my nerves would calm down. Especially if, I was trying to go to church.
THE LORD WAS STILL WITH ME WHETHER I KNEW IT OR NOT. I was learning a great lesson from all this. If you could of only seen the inside of me, you would know beyond a doubt that God would have to, perform a miracle for me, before I could ever do anything for him. It seem hopeless. My life was over I would never be happy again. Years and years like this.
UNTIL ONE DAY I HEARD OF A PROPHET THAT WAS HOLDING A TENT REVIVAL!
David Terrell World Wide Revivals,
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Acts 3:12
Ye men of Israel, why marvel yea at this? or why look ye so earnestly on us, as though by our own power or holiness we had made this man to walk? His name through faith IN HIS NAME HATH MADE THIS MAN STRONG, WHOM YE SEE AND KNOW.



They said he was an end time prophet and apostle. I wondered if he was a hypocrite like all the rest was. Was he for real. Was the miracles that I was seeing real or just a put on..Well I was about to find out. If anyone could find out I could. I was brave I took a front row seat. I thought before the service started that I was getting out of here, these people are weird, all they do is walk around and pray. This is probably a cult. WELL I DECIDED TO STAY AND SEE IT THROUGH, I HAD DROVE A LONG, WAY SO I'D SEE IT THROUGH. The preacher finally came out, he fell down on his knee's and began to pray, man I had never heard anybody pray like that, it was really getting to me, my brick wall I had up was beginning to melt. when he got through he stood and begin to talk, then he began to walk toward me, I froze I couldn't move. I was scared but I knew I wasn't going anywhere, cause I couldn't move. He prayed and prayed for me, my wall slowly started melting. He told me how I was fighting suicide spirits, how I had been abused, tormented, mistreated, how I had isolated myself for so many years and told me how many years it had been and he was right. He told me how I lived and conducted my self where I lived, and a whole lot more I cannot remember and he also told me that I was a 'CHOSEN VESSEL ORDAINED BY GOD AND CHOSEN FOR THE GOSPEL',"yes me".
How could I be chosen for anything the shape I was in. This man knew what he was talking about, God used him to reach way down inside me where no one "but God could reach. My wall was like iron no one could reach me. "ONLY GOD COULD DO THIS". I had been so wounded that no one could reach me, I wouldn't listen to no one. No one was going to deceive me again. The man of God, told me things that I had never told anyone only God knew. So how could I doubt it. I also, felt so much, of the love of God, it flowed through my inner being.

Set totally free! From the chains of religion. "I am now honored to be a prisoner of Jesus Christ".
The woman you see before you, may look a lot the same, I still ware the same old clothes, I still got the same old name, oh but you're looking on the outside, if you could see in side instead, You would see a brand new man, cause the old man is dead. My husband Bro. Lay is taking this picture of me, Bro. Terrell, and Bro. Ted a brother that works for Bro. Terrell. I tell of Bro. Lay later in this testimony.. Thank you Lord for healing my broken heart and spirit. And giving me a brand new life THE ENEMY THOUGHT HE HAD TOTALLY DESTROYED ONE OF GODS CHOSEN VESSELS:
He done a good job of destroying me but God turned it around for my good. Cause all the time I was wounded, I was learning how it felt to walk a lonely road, no one to help. A broken and a contrite spirit which was unbearable at times. I learned what it was like to seek help in the churches and could not find any. I learned of all the sin that was in the pulpits. How people were so cold and didn't live what they preached. All these things I needed to learn, cause you see you want make it far serving God, if you don't get your feeling dead, by allowing the Holy Ghost to crusify them. You must learn to put God first no matter what. No matter what others do, it don't effect your walk with the Lord. The Lord will give you victory over these things, when He sees that you are going on, no matter what others do. It will cause you to want, to be real and honest before the Lord, cause you don't want to be like the people that has destroyed you and they can't effect you no more. You want to be a real Christan, one that God can use to help others, that is in the same shape that you were in. WITH OUT HIM WE CAN DO NOTHING: but through him and his Divine love we can do all things.we must come through it with love and pray for the ones that done us wrong and God only can restore and put the love there.
IF YOU ARE LOOKING FOR A REAL CHRISTAN they will have the love of God. Not put on love but a love that you can feel flow from them, that reaches the inner part of you. Not mouth love. FOR GOD IS LOVE. If you don't have the flowing spirit of love you don't have God no matter what you say or do. They can do miracles, give their body to be burned, they can shout and talk in tongues, prophecy and all the works of Christ but the BIBLE, says without Charity it profits nothing. THAT IS HOW YOU CAN TELL IF ANYONE HAS GOD, they flow with the love of God, that you can feel go, into your inner soul. Not just hearing them saying it, but feeling it, LOVE BREAKS THE HARD SPIRIT IN YOU and touches the inner heart of man and brings the hurts and wounds out of him. His love makes you began to feel all the hurts inside you, and it will cause you to want to fall at his feet. He will totally heal you too, and all the hurt will be gone, as if you have never been hurt, it will all be gone and you can work in the church and on the streets, helping people again, with a heart full of Gods love. Your hurt is totally gone you are filled with his peace and love.

A SPIRIT OR CHRISTIAN WITH OUT LOVE WILL CAUSE YOU TO REBEL AND HATE THE CHURCH. You will except, the correction of God, and will listen, if it is presented by love. But hate in a suppose to be christian will cause you to rebel. There is nothing wrong with you when you feel this way, it is the spirit of the devil in that person that is wanting to down you, and make you feel like you are, and will never be worth anything, in the Lords service. Nothing you do is good enough, there is no hope for you and the one that is talking to you, thinks they are holy and righteous and they are full of the devil, CAUSE GOD MAKES US FEEL LOVED, SPECIAL AND CAN BE ALL THINGS IN HIM. Because he died for us and we cannot comprehend his great love for us. When you really find God and set your heart and mind to serve him, you will be rejected by most Christians so call Christians. When you make up your mind to serve him no matter what others say or do, or no matter if no one wants to live right it doesn't matter no more cause you are going to please Him, and not worry about man any more, you will be REJECTED IN MOST CHURCHES: I plan to serve him the right way, if no church welcomes me. You see we can't live right, it takes his spirit in us, We just yield to his spirit and he puts, his self, in us and he lives it for us. All we do is yield and obey his WORD NOT MANS WORD.
I HAVE SET MY HEART AND MIND TO SEEK HIM AND KNOW HIM FOR MY SELF. I seek him early in the mornings before anyone gets out of the bed. Day after day doing this sometimes it seems like you are getting no where. But the instant the devil comes again you, Gods spirit raises up in you so strong that you didn't even know it was there. You see God said if you draw nigh to me, I will draw nigh to you. And we must believe what he said, not go by what we feel but what he said in his word. We walk by faith no feelings. AND WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT HE WILL let you feel his divine spirit of love flowing through you, loving you. He wants us to love him more than anything and oh how he rewards us for our faithfulness to him. Words cannot describe his love when he begins to pour his love through us. I WILL NEVER LISTEN TO MAN AGAIN OR PUT HIM ON A PEDESTAL. Man is but dust and ashes of the earth that God breathed into and gave life, they don't deserve his praise and honor. He alone is great and the great deliver, When you go down so low there is no way out and he delivers you, you will learn who it is that loves, and helps you.


Going in the water, to be buried with my Saviour.
It's an honor to take his name in marriage.
HE TOUCH ME AND NOW I AM NO LONGER THE SAME..acts2:38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins. AND THEY CAST HIM OUT OF THE SYNAGOGUE ! John 9:34. This is what you can expect when you really serve Him and refuse to bow to man and come under their doctrines.Jesus heard that they had cast him out; and when he had found him, he said unto him, Dost thou believe on the Son of God? He answered and said who is he, Lord, that I might believe on him? And Jesus said unto him, Thou hast both seen him, and it is he that talketh with thee. And he said,
LORD I BELIEVE AND HE WORSHIPED HIM.
Isn't that wonderful to have Him all for your self. When men reject you, when they cast you out of the churches, when no one believes in you, the preachers and prophets turn again you and cast you out as evil. Isn't it worth it just to know him. He will be there for you when no one else is, he will protect your children, he will bless you and be your dearest friend, when all have turned their backs on you, he will love you in your darkest hours, comfort you through all your sorrows. Man this is worth more to me than the praise of man. I WANT HIS HONOR NOT MANS HONOR that when I pray I know he honors it and answers me. When we serve him and love him above everything else. Sometimes it takes everyone failing us to bring us to this place in Him. He was there all the time waiting to comfort us when everything else failed us. ARE YOU TIRED OF CHASING RAINBOWS going no where. Why not work on the most important thing in life. OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS. nothing else will last.
I AM WAKEING UP AND SERVING HIM WITH ALL MY HEART AND PUTTING HIM FIRST AND LETTING EVERYTHING ELSE COME IN SECOND. Seek him with all your heart and you will find him. you may not get it back over night, but isn't it worth working for, day by day giving him time in our prayer closet and reading his word.

This is Bro. Lay, one of Bro. Terrells ministers, that worked and traveled with him. Which later would become my husband.
HE HAD A GIFT OF LOVE WAITING FOR ME:
HE HAD A HUSBAND WAITING FOR ME, ONE THAT WOULD LOVE ME, AND STAND BY ME, SOMETHING I HAD NEVER HAD BEFORE...ONE THAT WOULD TEACH ME THE WORD, AND WE WOULD BE ABLE TO SERVE THE LORD TOGETHER, AND TRAVEL WORLD WIDE AND CARRY THE GOSPEL FOR JESUS. I HAVE BEEN BLESSED TO SEE THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE HEALED AND SET FREE BY THE POWER OF GOD. THE CRIPLE WALK, THE BLIND TO SEE, AND THE CAPTIVE SET FREE, WHEN I THOUGHT ALL HOPE WAS GONE, NOW GOD HAS TURNED IT AROUND, AND IS USING ME TO SPREAD THE GOOD NEWS OF THE GOSPEL, AS I TRAVEL WITH MY HUSBAND AND SHARE MY TESTIMONY. SO WHEN ALL HOPE IS GONE. JUST LOOK TO JESUS, IT AIN'T OVER TILL ITS OVER, AND IT AIN'T OVER YET. SATEN HAS FOUGHT US IN EVERY WAY TO STOP THIS. BUT GOD IS GOING TO PREVAIL, GOD CAN TAKE A IMPOSSIBLITY, AND MAKE IT POSSIBLE.
My confidence don't lie in my husband or no other minister, my confidence is in Jesus Christ. Man can fall, I have learned the hard way, but Jesus will never fail us, He will give us the best if we put him first. We confident, the spirit of Jesus in the man. They can fall just like anyone else. If we are built upon the rock, we can stand no matter who fails us.
JESUS THE GREAT DELIVER!
He will dry your tears and fill your life with joy and peace. He was there all the time waiting patiently in line.

My beloved mother, Verlena Reed Hurley. Thank you mom for all the prayers & all the times, you have set up at night & prayed until, God healed me. Jesus said to honor & obey our parents.
My precious little mother! Mother went home to be with the Lord February 18, 2009. She is so missed, but we know she is with the one she loved so dearly. If anyone had the joy of the Lord she did. You could hear her shouting in the early morning hours, when we were in bed.
And a Very special "Thank You," to my daughter
Melissa and grandchildren Bradley and Chasity Owens. For all your support, for your constant encouragement. For all your help, for always being there for me. And for BELIEVING IN ME.